My husband and I are ready for more foster kids, dear reader. We’ll call our agency and let them know. They’ll reinspect our house. Michael and I will have to update some of our training.

Our indulgence has been great. We did a lot of traveling going to San Antonio, Tampa, Orlando, Nassau, St. Thomas, and St. Maarten. I didn’t do nearly as much work on my writing projects as I wanted to, but maybe now I’ll be motivated to get more done before we get a placement.

I have so many emotions right now. Nervousness to give up this freedom. Gratitude for the chance to take breaks like this, but also sadness that it comes at the cost of having to say goodbye to the children we’ve grown attached to. Frustrated that I don’t have children I can call my own. Hopeful that one day it will happen. Worried that maybe it won’t. Eager to find out.

As I’m sitting here with tears on my keyboard, God is telling me (yet again) to be still. It’s time to get off the emotional rollercoaster. I can’t control every aspect of how my life will turn out. This gives me anxiety. But I know that He is God, and that He’s got this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nNWOC4qJeZA